I'm Really Not That Upset About It

by Stars Hollow

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released March 28, 2016

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Recorded at the Establishment in Des Moines, IA.
Engineered, mixed, and mastered by Andrew Ferren.
Artwork by Alexis Politz.
Special thanks to TJ Wilt, Carl, and Griffin Landa.

Stars Hollow is:
Tyler Stodghill
Wyatt Timberlake
Jesse Ledbetter


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Track Name: Embarrassed
I always bite off more than I can chew
Leaving me to choke in front of you
I'm embarrassed by everything that I do
I don't know how to change
I just know how to be safe

I was always afraid to climb up trees
So I'll just keep spinning
Lonely and incomplete
While all my friends are high above me
Don't mind me
I'm just dizzy

You know where I'll be
Planing flowers under that tree
Or burying my past
Down at Burn's Cemetery

But I'm really not that upset about it
I'm really just kind of a wreck without it
I'm really not that upset about it
But I'm really not any better without it.
Track Name: Mattering
I'm living in the uncertainty
of fair weather memories
Constantly asking if I really remember
or if it's just from home movies.

I'm absent minded, present but lifeless
and when I speak it's nothing of substance
So I started drinking
Because I thought I'd have something to say
It just made me drunk and want to throw up
And I'm still awkward
And I don't think that will change
I'm stuck in my ways, but that's okay
It's not that bad, I'm just sick of feeling like

I'm never in a solid state of mattering.

You see right through me.

I don't want to live in fair weather memories
I want to know it's more than home movies
And it fucking scares me

That I'm never in a solid state of mattering.
Track Name: Cicada
I feel like lately it's always raining
It leaves me drenched and soaking wet
And there's no time to get dry
because I'm never warned about the worst storms

I can't form words to say what I need
Shallow footprints covered up by everything
But I still try to hold it tight

Everything feels like goodbye
So I avoid it all the time

Pinned to the clotheslines where I hang out to try
Stuck in place to shrink in the sunshine
My skin is shrinking, it doesn't feel like mine
It doesn't fit me right

So I'll shed off my skin and sing the summers away
Because it rained all through April, but flowers never came
Track Name: Drinking Buddies
So if I tear at the seams and bleed
Would you help keep my wounds clean?
Am I just here for the intake
Of cheap beer and college shame?

This is not what I wanted
So fucking stressed and exhausted

Guess I got what I wanted.
Had some friends but I lost them.
Track Name: Cloud Envy
I wanna die laughing
Falling into a pile of leaves
All along not knowing
a bed of nails was underneath
but I know that it's hard to wake up in the morning

I'll always fall short of what's expected of me
But I'll be the finest shell that a casket has ever seen
Did you ever see?
Did you ever see me?

I wanna die lonely
because I've never been good at goodbyes
Always just floating along
Wishing I was just in the sky

I have cloud envy
But the way I feel swallows me
Choking me down, gnawing it's teeth
Until I'm asleep six feet deep
Gasping for air, I can't breathe

I know it shouldn't be
But I know it's meant to be
~~My cemetery~~

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