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I'm Really Not That Upset About It

by Stars Hollow

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1.
Embarrassed 02:49
I always bite off more than I can chew Leaving me to choke in front of you I'm embarrassed by everything that I do I don't know how to change I just know how to be safe I was always afraid to climb up trees So I'll just keep spinning Lonely and incomplete While all my friends are high above me Don't mind me I'm just dizzy You know where I'll be Planing flowers under that tree Or burying my past Down at Burn's Cemetery But I'm really not that upset about it I'm really just kind of a wreck without it I'm really not that upset about it But I'm really not any better without it.
2.
Mattering 03:14
I'm living in the uncertainty of fair weather memories Constantly asking if I really remember or if it's just from home movies. I'm absent minded, present but lifeless and when I speak it's nothing of substance So I started drinking Because I thought I'd have something to say It just made me drunk and want to throw up And I'm still awkward And I don't think that will change I'm stuck in my ways, but that's okay It's not that bad, I'm just sick of feeling like I'm never in a solid state of mattering. You see right through me. I don't want to live in fair weather memories I want to know it's more than home movies And it fucking scares me It fucKING SCAAARES MEEEEEH. That I'm never in a solid state of mattering.
3.
Cicada 03:30
I feel like lately it's always raining It leaves me drenched and soaking wet And there's no time to get dry because I'm never warned about the worst storms I can't form words to say what I need Shallow footprints covered up by everything But I still try to hold it tight Everything feels like goodbye So I avoid it all the time Pinned to the clotheslines where I hang out to try Stuck in place to shrink in the sunshine My skin is shrinking, it doesn't feel like mine It doesn't fit me right So I'll shed off my skin and sing the summers away Because it rained all through April, but flowers never came
4.
So if I tear at the seams and bleed Would you help keep my wounds clean? Am I just here for the intake Of cheap beer and college shame? This is not what I wanted So fucking stressed and exhausted Guess I got what I wanted. Had some friends but I lost them.
5.
Cloud Envy 03:28
I wanna die laughing Falling into a pile of leaves All along not knowing a bed of nails was underneath but I know that it's hard to wake up in the morning I'll always fall short of what's expected of me But I'll be the finest shell that a casket has ever seen Did you ever see? Did you ever see me? I wanna die lonely because I've never been good at goodbyes Always just floating along Wishing I was just in the sky I have cloud envy But the way I feel swallows me Choking me down, gnawing it's teeth Until I'm asleep six feet deep Gasping for air, I can't breathe I know it shouldn't be But I know it's meant to be ~~My cemetery~~

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released March 28, 2016

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Recorded at the Establishment in Des Moines, IA.
Engineered, mixed, and mastered by Andrew Ferren.
Artwork by Alexis Politz.
Special thanks to TJ Wilt, Carl, and Griffin Landa.


Stars Hollow is:
Tyler Stodghill
Wyatt Timberlake
Jesse Ledbetter

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